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Eyes
Posted on .06.17.2005 at 5: 40 am
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i am so miserable, im in a dissapointing relationship that i just cant get myself out of. i hate my life, i know who i want to be with, but i know it wouldnt work out in the end unless we wait. i want to die,

Eyes
Posted on .03.19.2005 at 11: 47 pm
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we got a puppy!!! her name is honey.... and tomorrow we are looking at a house. im so excited about my future with him!!!

Eyes
Posted on .03.06.2005 at 1: 35 am
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i got my hair cut, they took 4 inches off, it looks sofucking great!!!

Eyes
Posted on .02.23.2005 at 8: 09 pm
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my rat had babies on saturday, who wants one?

Eyes
Posted on .02.16.2005 at 5: 58 pm
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not that anyone cares, but my valentine's day was AWESOME!!!! marty got me a huge thing of chocolate and a card, and a teddy bear, and took me out to dinner...tonight he's taking me to get a ring!!!!!

i started a new job last wednesday and it is great, im a debt consiladator....lucky me....

anywho, i need to shower, marty should be here in like 10 mins and im late....we're going to get the ring!!!!



-heart-


sarah

----2-16 10:47pm----

i forgot to tell the noone that reads this, that im moving in with him in the middle of march, and i am just smitten and junk...sometimes, when i think about him, and i cry....and when he says that he will be there for me, no matter what, i know he's not lying like dennis was....he needs me as much as i need him
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not that anyone cares, but my valentine's day was AWESOME!!!! marty got me a huge thing of chocolate and a card, and a teddy bear, and took me out to dinner...tonight he's taking me to get a ring!!!!!

i started a new job last wednesday and it is great, im a debt consiladator....lucky me....

anywho, i need to shower, marty should be here in like 10 mins and im late....we're going to get the ring!!!!



-heart-


sarah

----2-16 10:47pm----

i forgot to tell the noone that reads this, that im moving in with him in the middle of march, and i am just smitten and junk...sometimes, when i think about him, and i cry....and when he says that he will be there for me, no matter what, i know he's not lying like dennis was....he needs me as much as i need him <its not like one of those co-dependant things, its a mutual need, like u know how a penguin has a NEED for the other penguin and there is only one penguin in the whole world that is a match for that penguin, and when that penguin finds the other penguin, their life is perfect, thats how marty and i are> and thats why we are perfect for eachother... eventhough we fight about stupid things sometimes, we always tell eachother that we love eachother, while we are fighting, and its just like we think "why the f are we fighting over something so stupid, i love this person, lets just make up, and get on with it." and its like we are stronger when its over. we went to dinner tonight and the girl from moe's was like i saw you two at hollywood video on valentines day!! someone recognized us as a couple, it was funny and we had to leave cuz marty does not like mexican food....but it was funny, and i laughed...in other news, i lost weight, like 18 pounds, working makes me not hungry, which leads to not eating, which means I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER, and i need to not have one, cuz it makes me crazy.well, roseanne is on now, so i need to watch it....

later

-heart-


sarah


Eyes
Posted on .01.19.2005 at 4: 18 am
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my pet!

Eyes
Posted on .01.19.2005 at 4: 12 am
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The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005


During the outage I got laid.


What did you do?


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Eyes
Posted on .01.18.2005 at 2: 06 am
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Current Music: WHO CARES ANY MORE IT DOSENT MATTER
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I AM SO INCREDIBLY DEPRESSED...AND I HAVE NO FRIENDS.....ALL I HAVE IS A BOY-FRIEND THAT WORKS AND SLEEPS ALL THE TIME, AND HE SMOKES POT AND I HATE POT



LIFE SUCKS



P.S.
HAVING NO FRIENDS WHEN YOU NEED THEM REALLY BADLY, SUCKS ASS LIKE NO OTHER

Eyes
Posted on .01.18.2005 at 2: 03 am
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I've kissed someone: (bold those that apply)

on the cheek.

on the lips.

on their hands or fingers.

in my room.

in their room.


of the same sex.

of the opposite sex.

younger than me.

older than me.

with jet black hair.

with curly hair.

with blonde hair & blue eyes.

with flaming red hair.
(dyed that way)

with straight hair.


smaller/shorter than me.

bigger/taller than me.

with a lip ring.

who was drunk.

who was high.


who I had just met.

who was homosexual.

who I didn't really want to kiss.

on a holiday.


who was going out with someone else. 


who was going out with someone close to me.

who was my good friend's brother or sister.

who had been/is in jail.

in a graveyard.

at a show/concert.

at the beach.

in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.

who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.

with dyed hair.

with a shaved head.

who was/is my good friend.

who was/is in a band.

who has tattoos.


who is of a completely different race than me.

in the rain.

in another continent besides where I was born.

with an accent.

with an std.


on a boat.

in a car/taxi/bus.


on a plane.

at the circus/carnival.

with a missing body part.

in the movies.


Eyes
Posted on .01.14.2005 at 4: 06 am
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280


Eyes
Posted on .01.10.2005 at 12: 06 am
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college is cool as shit

Eyes
Posted on .01.08.2005 at 5: 10 pm
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had a date with dennis last night

Eyes
Posted on .01.07.2005 at 9: 59 pm
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In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Have at least one orgasm per hour.

Get your resolution here





In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Find out who I got that STD from.

Get your resolution here






In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Catch a sexually transmitted disease.

Get your resolution here





In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Become a slut.

Get your resolution here





In the year 2005 I resolve to:

Get the chick next door pregnant.

Get your resolution here



Eyes
Posted on .12.31.2004 at 9: 19 am
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why is it that when everything should be perfect, it just feels like somethings going to go horribly wrong?

Eyes
Posted on .12.18.2004 at 11: 39 pm
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today sucked...im going to vomit
just thought id let everyone that reads this...which is basically noone, know.


Eyes
Posted on .12.16.2004 at 11: 20 pm
Current Mood: lovedIm married
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he bought me a diamond ring!!!!

i am so in love with him

it is inconcevieblish



mrs.marty

Eyes
Posted on .12.13.2004 at 1: 28 pm
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DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:Moderate
Narcissistic:Low
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

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Eyes
Posted on .12.10.2004 at 3: 35 pm
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[the alphabet survey]

Created by thetoasternetwork and taken 8344 times on bzoink!

Act your ageeighteen
Born on what day of the weekwednesday...i think
Chore you hatebathroom
Dad's namelarry
Essentail make-up itemeyeliner
Favorite actors/actressespatrick fugit
Gold or sliversilver
Hometownwhitefish bay
Instruments you playdrums,keys,guitar
Job titlestudent, operator, sex giver
Kidsnone
Living arrangementsparents
Mom's namemarlene
Number of socks you own2345u2096306
Overnight hospital stays6
Phobiabeing alone
Quote you liketo the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world
Religious affiliationnone
Siblings1
Time you woke up today5:15am
Unusual habitsi can make myself vomit by sticking my finger down my throat
Vicious thing you've donedied
Worst habiteating
X-rays you've hadi dont know..... like 12
Your favorite seasonwinter
Zodiac signaries

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Eyes
Posted on .12.10.2004 at 3: 23 pm
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this is how i know that marty is crazy in love with me....he let me feed him sushi...and he swallowed it.



i love my baby


sarah




p.s. i've been missing nikki for some weird reason.....

Eyes
Posted on .12.08.2004 at 11: 19 pm
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ed is love
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Eyes
Posted on .12.06.2004 at 7: 58 pm
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Layers

Created by andy and taken 8982 times on bzoink!

Layer.one
NameSarah
BirthdateApril 14, Ninteen hundred and eighty six
BirthplaceWhitefish bay, Wisconsin
Current locationWellington
Eyesgreen/blue/grey
Hairred/black
Height5'3inches short
Righty or Leftysouth paw BITCH
Zodiac Signaries
Layer.two
Your heritagejewish..
Your weaknessSex
Your shoes you wore todayone black, one blue converse from 10th grade
Your fearsbeing alone
Your perfect pizzawithout sauce, made like cheesy bread from dominoes or papa john's
Goal you'd like to achievecollege
Layer.three
Your thoughts first waking upwhy cant i go back to bed?
Your best physical featureeyes,hair,breasts,teeth,skin,face...
Your bedtime10:45
Your most missed memoryhanging out with nikki
Layer.four
Pepsi or Cokecoke, diet
McDonald's or Burger Kingmc'd's
Single or group datessingle
Adidas or Nikeconverse
Lipton Ice Tea or Nesteawater
Chocolate or vanillamint chocolate chip
Cappuccino or coffeenone
Layer.five
Smokesometimes
Cussnope
Singin my car
Take showers dailydefinately
Have a crushon my boyfriend
Think you've been in lovei know i have
Want to go collegeim in college
Want to get marriedi kind of am
Believe in yourselfyes
Get motion sicknessno
Think you're attractiveon my thinner days, yes
Think you're a health freakno
Get along with your parentsmy mom
Like thunderstormsim only happy when it rains
Play an instrumentpiano, drums, guitar
Layer.six - in the past months
Gone to the mallno
Eaten an entire box of Oreosno
Eaten sushiyes, last night
Been on stageno
Gone skatingno
Made homemade cookiesno
Gone skinny dippingno
Dyed your hairyes
Stolen anythingno
Label.seven - ever..
Been trashed or extremely intoxicatedno
Been called a teaselol......maybe
Got beaten upno
Layer.eight
Age you hoped to be married22
Number and name of children2, dont know yet
Dream weddingthe whole spheil
How do you want to diein my sleep
Where do you want to attend collegenortheastern
Dream jobmom
Country you want to visitaustralia
Layer.nine - In a guy/girl...
Best eye colorblue
Best hair colordepends
Short or long hairlong
Heighttall
Best weightbigger than me
Best clothingno rap stuff, just i guess alternative
Best first date locationbackseat
Best first kiss locationfront door
Layer.ten
Number of drugs taken illegally1
Number of people I could trust with my life4
Number of CDs that I ownabout 300
Number of piercings8
Number of tattoos3, but they are clumped together in one kind of, its 3 stars
Number of times my name's been in the newsnone
Number of scars on my bodya few, i had some hard times in my past
Number of things in my past that I regret.many

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Eyes
Posted on .12.01.2004 at 1: 20 pm
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im pretty sure im pregnant

Eyes

I hate everything about everyone

Posted on .11.15.2004 at 12: 15 am
Current Mood: depressedVery
Current Music: .....
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life just sucks....I've been throwing up involuntarily and voulintairily....left work early cuz i threw up....i have strep,an ear infection, and the stomach flu....

i have to register for my first semester today....im beyond nervous

nobody loves me....
marty never called...whats the point? i dont make him happy
i feel so alone




sarah


btw...ive lost 14pounds...in like 4 days.i dont feel like updating my ticker

Eyes
Posted on .11.13.2004 at 7: 24 am
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Eyes
Posted on .11.12.2004 at 10: 37 am
Current Mood: bouncybouncy
Current Music: El charro squeaking
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ok so i woke up this morning, and weighed myself...it seems i have lost another 2pounds...which makes a total of 5 in 2days...GO ME!!!!!!!

i have to work today, which means i'll be having soup and water...mostly water...i found 3 adderrall yesterday, so i wont be as hungry..thank god!

well thats all for now..i think ill have marty come over tonight


tata

<3

sarah



11-10= 283
11-11=280
11-12=278


Eyes

AWESOME DAY!!!!

Posted on .11.11.2004 at 10: 04 pm
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: halo2 {thank's to henry}
Tags:
consumption


2popsicles
1 1/2 cups sacred heart soup


thats it



GO ME!!!!


its days like these that i really feel strong


sarah

Eyes

WLG

Posted on .11.10.2004 at 11: 26 pm
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TODAY-283
DEC-278
JAN-263
FEB-248
MAR-233
APR-218
MAY-203
JUN-188
JUL-173
AUG-158
SEP-143
OCT-128
NOV-113


113, THAT SOUNDS LIKE A GREAT GOAL FOR NOW



THINSPIRE ME GUYS!!!!

Eyes

DEATH, FRIEND OR FOE?

Posted on .11.10.2004 at 11: 07 pm
Current Mood: sicksick
Current Music: CRICKETS
Tags:
eh, today was better than normal

-egg mc muffin on a biscuit
-water




i really need to get a starvation schedule




so, i woke up at 5am today to take my test,and i felt like SHYIT!!!!!
i took it, and during the break i went to old navy(i havent been there in about 3 years)i bought 2 pairs of lounge pants, thats all that fit me, even the size 20's dont fit!!! i really need to stop eating. then i went back and finished the test. went home,slept, went to the dr's....they weighed me im 283...{cries} i think its almost my highest....then i went home took a shower, and went to college orientation...its really embarassing when you cant fit into the chairs that are connected to the desks.....i could barely breathe.....then i went to marty's and he wanted to do it with the lights on....i started sobbing...i am so embarrassed with how i look that it is effecting my sex life now!!! so then i went home...and here i am...depressed,sick,and hungry.....i want to eat the whole world....but then i would be afraid that i would kill myself....


someone please help me get back on track...my mia is getting out of control....i threw up a total of 14 times yesterday...and all i want to do is curl into a ball,but im too fat......


please help me



sarah

Eyes
Posted on .11.10.2004 at 2: 39 am
Current Mood: crappycrappy
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today sucked!!!!


consumption-

-soup (sacred heart diet)
-fruit salad
-muffin
-granola
-frozen yogurt
-onion rings w/mayo
-toast
-more soup
-turkey wrap




no wonder im so fucking fat


i need a starvation partner



sarah

Eyes

First day

Posted on .11.09.2004 at 12: 32 am
Current Mood: angrythat i let this go on so long
Current Music: my fat
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i feel like such a fattie.....ive been ana/mia for about 3 years.....and ever since i got out of renfrew, and fat camp....i havent been restricting...well today that is all about to change. ive been looking at all the live journal sites too long without doing anything. so, today, i will change



today is the beginning of the end of being fat



sarah


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